“You are beautiful”… says my husband. The doubt raised in my mind…am I? I want to think,” Yeah Right!” “ I don’t look like a model or I’m not perfect”. Doubt of being enough speaks in many ways into a womans mind and heart.
Was I 17 when I met him and looked a bit different than I do now? YES! I do take care of my body and appearance, I keep myself up. I eat healthy, I take my supplements, I wash and tend to my skin, I call all of this damage control. He laughs at me when he sees me in my wraps, masks and otherwise other crazy things I do to maintain what I have.
Has life changed me? A most resounding YES! I am 30 years older and wiser I might add, I’ve had 4 beautiful children, that have scarred and changed my body that I wouldn’t change for the world, these scars are my badges of honor. He created these children with me, he walked with me through pregnancy and labor. He bathed me in love and adoration as my body changed and grew his children… He has walked through illness and injury with me. Taking care of me, loving me and adoring me through the chaos. He loved me then, he loves me now, and he truly believes with all of his being that I am beautiful.
Why oh why do we as women and wives not believe our own husbands?
I know that my husband is a man of faith, a man of honor, a truthful man, a man of his word and has qualities in his life that only few men I know have. For years I always wanted to believe him, I really did. But the world got in the way of believing this truth. Social Media, television, movies and magazines all tell us as women that we have to be perfect model status to be beautiful. I now totally disagree with these imposed thoughts of beauty.
The Bible tells me that my husband is to love only one woman, for life. I honor the word of God as absolute truth. It also says for him to love his own wife as he loves himself. It also says that Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous. These things apply to me as I need to grasp again and again, that my husband loves only me, loves my inside soul and my outside body, he is patient and kind to remind me of these things and he was not jealous nor arrogant when I simply couldn’t believe him.
But I must!
I need to believe that my husband speaks truth from his heart and soul. How can I do this? By simply believing that I am enough! I am my husbands perfect wife! I am all that he needs! I am loved and adored and that should be enough to overcome that sinful, evil voice inside me that wants to doubt him. When I fail in my heart of hearts to be his perfect bride, I adapt and change for him, for us, for our marriage. It’s worth it.
But really… I am beautiful to my husband. I am his perfect bride. He desires only me. He sees the beauty within me that I sometimes cannot see in myself, he does not see what changes on the outside. He still tells me I haven’t changed a bit, (Thank the Good Lord for failing eyesight! J)
I am truly beautiful to my husband, as I should be. I am worth the value of gold and rubies to my husband and I should act accordingly.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, because the beholder see what’s inside your heart and soul..
My husband is my beholder and I am beautiful to him and for all its worth… that is enough for me!