Fake people have an image to maintain. Real people do real things...
Oh how I can relate to this comment! Probably beyond what I should be able to... I grew up in a time and place that I was always to be concerened of "what the neighbors would think". What would the Jones family think?... if they knew.... I hated this part of my life... Liars are fakers and fakers are liars! I would rather live a life of integrity and honesty, taking the good decisions and owning up to the wrong decisions in my life. It takes far too much energy to keep up the stories of lying, to remember what is truth and what is a down right lie.
Honesty is something I treasure. I am really transparent, my life, my image, who I am, what I think and the crazy stuff that happens to me. I share everything! Why? Because I laugh at myself.. I laugh it off when I trip and fall, spill coffee on my new white shirt or just do something silly. And I expect you to laugh with me!!! And I don't really care if you're laughing with me or laughing at me… At least your laughing… Why.. Well it's not because I have this amazing self esteem that's for sure. Yeah it felt kinda wierd at first when I started doing this, but my goal was to not care what the world thought of me, but what I thought of myself… I am enough and so are you! I am an outgoing person by nature, but I fed off of what people thought and said of me. No longer, I am enough! I choose what I feel and how I react to everything, so I chose to have joy in my life and with joy comes laughter and it was a tough lesson to teach myself. I do this, well... for the most part, I doubt myself now and again still, it's what I call one of the dragons in my life I still need to slay but that's another story for another time.
My image is real. What you see and hear from me is what you get in me. I refuse to be fake it in any way. The comment of “fake it till you make it” doesn't resonate with me. But this one… Makes me excited for a new adventure to push me through…. “Decide and Do”.
Once I decide to do something, I am excited. These ideas I have usually come in my quiet time, time after my prayer time, I weigh them in my mind … is this really what I want to do?, is it what's best for me and my family? If I am clear about whatever this thought is, I move forward with the idea, I see wise counsel of those that have gone before me, my husband and mentors in my church, as well as professional colleagues. If it isn't clear, I simply write it down for another time, I can't remember my racing mind half of the time so I write up a lot of stuff. Then I Pray about it. I ask God if this is where I need to go, where He wants me to go, what I need to do, is this the plan He has for me and could He reveal what the right path is for me to take. Since I write down so many of my thoughts and goals down the next part is easy for me. I write down this desire and dreams in my journal and I write it out fully. If the entire plan doesn't reveal itself, I simply wait for it. Maybe right now isn't perfect, but I can make a perfect plan for the future. Part of this process is seeing the plan work out in the future, what will it look like? What will it feel like? What great things will come of it? Then I see it as real! Like I already have it, this to me is not faking it, I am creating a new reality and experience in my life. Great minds dream, decide and then do. I want to be a doer, not a faker. I am so thankful with dreams that work out to reality, I am always giving thanks for the blessings in my life and how they have come to fruition or I have been saved from turmoil of the idea and it fizzled out. The last part is that I when I align myself with the plan God has for me by turning my will to be a biblical will and knowing and reading the word of God, praying and listening I can trust that this is what is right for my family and for me. I trust my decision to be right and true and move forward for its success!
Today is my New Day … To Decide and Do! Oh what an adventure it will be….